Wednesday, September 28, 2011

~The Silver Star Gaze~

When i was lil, i was taught to follow my star gaze.. my dreams and that they could be lived in reality.When i was not so lil, i was made to understand that everything that i dreamed off or was dreaming off was not always possible and that i should follow them as much as i could.When i was not lil at all, i was told that everything i dreamt off when i was growing up was the stuff that only dreams were made off and that reality was a whole different ball game.When i stepped into this godforsaken crazy land of adulthood,i had been taught,untaught,told,untold so many times that,i didnt even realise when my star gaze turned into a far fetched dream itself.
When did this happen?When did we become so big? When did our dreams.. start ceasing to be reality and start getting replaced by priorities,responsibilities,commitments,duties et al.? 

Those dreams.. which are so close when you shut your eyes that you can almost touch them,almost smell them,almost feel them..almost have them. Those dreams that you've seen so many times that in your parallel candy-flossed dream universe they almost become a reality.Those dreams that you build your life on and those that keep adding themselves to base your life on.. any and all sorts of dreams are the things that you can almost get a taste off... but probably they're fated OR ill fated to be an "almost" of life..
But what would life be if there were no almosts in life ?


Almost ~ That thin fragile line which demarcates a dream life which would have been from the life that it is.
Life,as i see now,has been like this for almost all of us, full of almosts..
Mark Twain once said-" The difference between the almost right word and the right word is really a large matter–’tis the difference between the lightning bug and the lightning.” 
What he means according to me is that, when one's supposed to take a decision, either that decision can be a 10/10 bang-on hitting-the-bull's eye sort of decision (as bright as a bolt of lightning!) or that decision can be a 9.99/10,a slight miss, a tiny deviation or an almost..(not a bright flash of light but a tiny dot of light..still its a flicker of light nonetheless)
Almost >>  is the gap between the dream life you beautifully carve out of nothing in your head and the reality that you live in.Its the first position in any competition and any other a position below it,when you almost finish off first.Its the hollow between the spotlight and the pitch darkness around it,when you're almost in the spotlight and still out of it.It is the vaccum you hear when you dial someone's phone number and hang up just before it starts ringing,when you almost get connected. It is the fraction of a second underwater just before you come up,when you almost drown. It is that one fourth grace mark which takes you to the other side,when you almost failed.It is that one rupee while bidding which makes you lose,when you could've almost won.It is that one run that makes 99 a 100 ,when you almost make a century.


Almost is the place where ..Life happens..
When you're busy star gazing and fate's busy planning your future..
When you wake up from your sleep and cant make out whether what you just saw was a dream or it was for real..
When dreams try to meet the reality and they miss by an iota of an inch!


But does that mean that we should stop our star gazing? Does that mean the end of hope? Does that mean that we should never try to reach for the stars? Does that mean that its the end of it all?
NO. AND A BIG FAT NOOO AT THAT!
Oprah,the woman of all seasons,once said that the biggest adventure you can take it to love the life of your dreams.And rightly so,all dreams come true if we have the courage,the perseverance,the guts,the balls,the grit to pursue them..Whoever said dreams cannot be lived has clearly not chased them enough! The only reason anyone's life gets messy.. anyone's dream gets shattered is because they didn't have it in them to hold it for long enough,to compel it to come to them! Almost,my dearie,is the place which is proof that you went for it,that you took the plunge,that you followed your dream and that no matter what the outcome was.. you at least looked up in the sky,took the leap of faith and reached for your star. That's where the real adventure of life lies.Simply,because you cannot always wait for the perfect time, sometimes you must dare to jump.And midst of the confusion of telling,untelling,learning,unlearning the procedure of how to live your dream-life and how not to do it.. from when you were lil to when you became an adult,you realise that,that's when you've truly lived.. 



Life's not measured in pounds and nickels. Life's not even measured in hits and misses. And not even in winning and losing. Its measured by the simple fact that when you're ready to meet your creator,when you're bidding your final goodbyes,when you're into that tunnel of warm welcoming flash of white light..and your entire life flashes in front of your eyes.. you should not have a tiny grain of regret inside of you. When you look back and read your own biography,you should not be regretting the way the show ran and the way your life's curtain fell. You should be nodding and saying ..This is it. This is how i chose to live my dreams.

May be once a while, you should gather your guts and stretch that almost and make it a reality. May be once a while,you should know better and leave it at that. Both ways, you should know in the deepest corner of your heart that whatever you do .. you should never regret that you never tried.Because as you grow older the only things you'll regret are the things that you didn't do.. the girl/guy you almost married,the guy you almost saved,the job you almost left,the trip you almost took....the dream you almost lived. 



And i see many people regret their almosts in life.So why leave a chance to be in that place where all you have is regret in life?Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that you're not gonna live forever.Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had. No one and nothing waits forever.Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past - stop planning the future - stop figuring out precisely how we feel - stop deciding with our mind exactly what we want our heart to feel - sometimes we just have to accept things for what they are and be happy with that almost which becomes a living reality and not an almost anymore,sometimes you just have to go with the flow, dream big and live to the fullest !


Because in the end baby,it's all worth it !!!!! :)


Much love,
xoxo
Sea


Monday, September 12, 2011

Hopeless Cuteness ~ Unwavering Courage

19 Blog posts till now and not ONE exclusively dedicated to my hopeless romantique self ?
I can't believe myself ! What use were all those Mills & Boons and all the utterly outrageously and crazily romantic movies that I've bred on all my freaking life!!

So, I'm totally of the camp which believes in Prince Charming ..The knight in shining armor riding the glistening white horse in the starry night on a full moon day,who will come and sweep his Princess off her feet in one swift movement and take her away with him forever and ever.(ALL Fairytale stuff!) Or the hero who swooshes the heroin when he offers her his hand when she's running to catch the moving train..(DDLJ!)*sigh*
YA. Downright romantic. Downright make belief and unrealistic and immature and fictional and blah blah and BLAH.
But, whats a life without a lil dash of beautiful imagination in it? And when that beautiful imagination turns into even more beautiful reality .. That's the kind of stuff, real love is made of. And that's the kind,we heart ;)  Where imagination meets the reality and when beautiful meets even more beautiful.<3

Having said that, its no big surprise that i love that hopeless cuteness that comes with all this imaginary paraphernalia and also that,once you do find the one for you..the prince charming/princess of YOUR life..there attaches to the pair of you.. this adorable "hopeless cuteness".Phases when you cant stop thinking about each other,when you knowingly let go and overlook every flaw of the other person that stares you in your face,when you cant stay away from each other,when you just cant let the other person be,when all you want is them,when all you can feel are the butterflies in your stomach and the blush on your cheeks! :)
One look at the person and you melt like a load of wax on fire.. the gamut of emotions come to life and all that one can see,feel and look is.. HOPELESSLY CUTE ! :)
And as that hopeless cuteness builds,along with it grow a lot more things, which are stronger and more solid than just this adorable phase.. The things that somehow turn this hopeless cuteness into unwavering courage.

Unwavering courage to decide to be together.To stand against all odds.To be there through thick and thin.To stand shoulder to shoulder,hand in hand..fair and square. Through and through.As i see it,that's one thing people fear if they're in 'love'(supposedly).And that's the thing about courage,no one can ever tell or ever predict who will show what level of courage or guts or valor and when.The most non courageous people will stand up for what they believe in,if and only if,the thing that you're standing up for is standing with you. Up.Front.And Center. Being the pillar of strength to stand against every eventuality that may come between you.

I'm all for Happy Endings as i am for undying love that gives rise to that passionate courage.So darling,if you feel hopelessly smitten by someone and get the same hopeless smitten-ness back,then don't be afraid to really fall into 'love' and commit and go all out and draw courage from your love and be together against all odds.
And then watch that puppy-like hopeless cuteness become a tigress-like unwavering courage.

The thing is, if its real love my friend, you don't have to worry about trying to find the guts to stand up for it,convince your families etc.,worry about anything else on the earth, because all that real love does is,bring out the things in you,that you probably didn't even know existed. You'll be amazed to know that..THAT courage..is just the tip of that iceberg!!

THAT my  love , is what they call a happy ending to a happy beginning :)